Color My World

i_am_danielle @ 2009-08-25T00:50:00

2009-08-25T04:53:01Z

Helllooooo

holy everything

2009-03-30T05:32:11Z

I haven't used this, or any online journal in foreverrrrrr.

I'm hopefully going back to school in the fall.
I'm so broke.
and I work like it's my job.

I hate this.

i_am_danielle @ 2007-08-28T21:22:00

2007-08-29T01:29:08Z

So I think I'm going to a school and both majoring in something I no longer have a desire in..kdhglaksdhg I really need to stop commuting and room at college or off campus housing; I really need to meet new people and make new friends....I really don't want to not be able to see my best friend almost anytime I want though.. But then again that's what makes coming home so great and what makes it home in the first place. meh and also people are so confusing. aksghlskah i went shopping today because that's what I do when I'm depressed... Getting a new tattoo soon would make things seem better too. gkhsalk meh I really do need to get away. I want to live in the city with someone or multiple people who are similar to me and my interests or what not and yet are totally different in our own little ways..

i_am_danielle @ 2007-07-08T00:17:00

2007-07-08T04:17:39Z

So, Riverdance has been a guilty pleasure or whatnot of mine since the first time our music teacher showed us clips from when I was in like 2nd grade, or pretty much 12 years ago. And I finally saw it in person tonight. ! --It was amazing. I've watched parts of it so many times, I could tell the person next to me exactly what was going to happen. It's kind of weird to see something you've watch on a screen so many times finally be right in front of you.
kadlah my feet hurt so badly from walking around Boston in heels though, but def. totally worth it.

I've always kind of known deep down inside that I've always wanted to dance, but never have really said anything out loud about it and also unfortunately have not done anything about it..But I really want to change that. eff the time I don't have, and the money I don't have. I'll make it. Because I know I'll regret it if I never do it. I already regret not already having started when I was little, like most people..I could be over 10 years into it...aklghaslkhgslkda...But I just know that I have to start now before it's too late.. Honestly, if there's one thing I know I want to do, it's to take up dancing. To me dancing is an epitome of being free and alive, truly. Just the right movements can make you look beyond amazing... I just want to run, and jump and leap, and spin.. akhdglaksh How much more alive can you be than when in continuous, transit movement

i_am_danielle @ 2007-07-06T21:41:00

2007-07-07T01:42:16Z

the last post doesn't pertain to myself.

i've decided to keep updating this now for Bailey [:

It's been a little while.

It's kind of funny; how you kind of grow up and get used to things. You learn to be happy with the constants in your life, or maybe you don't... Or maybe you just think you're happy because you've forgotten what something else feels like.

Truthfully, I am happy, Some aspects are even perfect; like my best friend situation ( [: )...Yet recently I've been reminded what it's like to have some innocent crush.. What it feels like to genuinely, and completely have interest in someone, and to 'like' them. And yet what it's like to realize that there might not be any potential at all, and with realizing that; feeling worse than you had been before it all started. I miss lying down and day dreaming. Last night as I went to fall asleep, I could feel the difference.. It felt like laying down to go to sleep was just something to do to pass the time til the start of a new day...I can't explain it..

But really, it's okay if there is really no potential for anything more than friends, because they are really great, and I should be thrilled that they are so enthused in being at least that, which I am. Also, I still don't know any truths to the matter..

I saw fireworks the other night and realized that they kind of make me feel better when I'm uneasy.
It's kind of like just finally letting go of every problem you've ever had, exploding as you finally let them up, as if you were screaming them.

i_am_danielle @ 2007-06-20T17:50:00

2007-06-20T21:51:20Z

no one cares.

i_am_danielle @ 2007-04-03T00:18:00

2007-04-03T04:20:57Z

so today was work in the morning and being exhausted.. then coming home and taking a nap, and getting an unexpected phone call from thee love of my lifeee to hangout, because i thought she was already doing something with someone else tonight, and we were going to hang tomorrow. KFC! and talking and american haunting, which was the worst movie ever.

but it's okayyy.

blades of glory again tomorrow! [:

i_am_danielle @ 2007-03-25T11:46:00

2007-03-25T15:46:41Z

akjdgk;ljgjhk holy everything typing in livejournal for once.

umm ya. blogspot.com.

i_am_danielle @ 2007-03-03T16:52:00

2007-03-03T21:52:47Z

blogspot,
the new livejournal.

i_am_danielle @ 2007-03-01T00:39:00

2007-03-01T05:54:10Z

So tonight was Bright Eyes with Dave.
It was awesome, obviii. lol
He played a bunch of new stuff, but it was good.
Ummmakghl on the way there we were on the green line and like 20 kids came on and started fighting and stuff sooo they delayed the whole train, then they wait like 10 minutes to tell us that we're not going anywhere cause they're waiting for the police, so dave and i decided to walk to the next T station, a kid in his class showed us to Kenmore, la.

I'm hanging out with Laura tomorrow...I'm really excited...We had a real conversation for the first time in since I can remember last night...Like our usual conversations, long and totally random about anything and everything...I miss that..I miss my friend.
Totally going to grab Dave at one point and see the number 23 or whatevv we decide, woo

Hmmmm, on a totally different note,
Ever wonder if there truly is a parallel universe? And maybe when we have vivid/lucid dreams it's really us entering a parallel universe with out the basic principles such as not being able to leave until you make something right that you need to for yourself... Like..Ever wonder why or how in your dream your dream self has the same thoughts as your real self, and you can feel yourself thinking those thoughts, and you can feel yourself or the touch of other people in your dream?...It's nuts..How do you literatly feel like you're there and not infact dreaming as you are?

it kind of almost connects with astral projection... It's when you're REALLY, REALLY good at meditation, and your soul, or something...Some part of you leaves your body, and can walk around and all that..You're in such a relaxed state that you free your spirit, and they say that it doesnt get lost because it stays connected to you through 'the silver cord'... it's supposidly what connects your soul to your body, and that when it's severed, that's when you die. Cause if you're in an alternate universe it's simlar, because another version of yourself is walking around in the world, while your real self is immobile in some sort of acoma or meditation..Just like in astral projection...Which I don't know if is really possible.. It's another thing I wonder along with the possiblity of a parallel universe,obviously. lol

i_am_danielle @ 2007-02-26T23:33:00

2007-02-27T04:54:14Z

I don't know what letting go is..It makes more sense to hold onto it if you really want or love something...I think the only way you can truly let go is if that person changes into something you dislike..Yet you still don't let go of how they were when you knew them, and what you had with them.

sometimes,

i hate everything.

but most of the time,

i don't.

i_am_danielle @ 2007-02-26T23:12:00

2007-02-27T04:25:29Z

I had my interview today, they said that they need the person going for the position I applied for to be a department lead first, and that when one of them opens and i still have good availability they i should go for that. I've put a lot of effort into Kohl's and it's showed and all that, and they had a lot of great things to say, so that's good. asdkghslkh I was looking forward to selling myself dammit, lol.

Enterpreneur-ing doesn't sound too bad... It will be cool to take some business courses at NEiA. If photography wasn't my major, I'd get into business totally! dkgklhas I'm so indecisive, it'd be nice to go to a new college with a new major like every semester. If only.
Which I'm also eligible for Spring 2008 study abroad, woo!
So hopefully I'll be living in either France or Germany for a semester...That's all they offer so far. adsklghslkghsa ahhhh I CANNOT wait.

I have the friday before my birthday off, and i get out at 3 on my birthday, so that's cool.
but i have no idea what to do and i rather not think about it.
aklghs

whatevvv. oh god.

i_am_danielle @ 2007-02-22T17:30:00

2007-02-22T22:33:38Z

jlhdljghdslkghlk;sdahglkash

wooooww ghlskdh people neede to leave hjesus christ.

lol i'm surronded by a bunch of strangers inspecting the house
movings lame.

and its really awkward.

pretty much.

i can't wait to leave for work.
cause i'm here alone, my moms out. askghsalk;h ahhh

seriously theres like 6 people here touching like everything, and now they're in the living room and stuff where i am and they're all around me and ya holy everything.

i_am_danielle @ 2007-02-22T04:14:00

2007-02-22T09:21:25Z

It ends up the area supervisor postion i applied for at kohl's is more than i expected. I thought it was like a department lead but it ends up actually being a management position basically, over an entire area, which i should of figured 'area supervisor' lol.. But ya, so this job is like 10x more important than i thought it was, and i've been getting tips from the current "1-3" which is the position i'm going up for (against 4 other people =x) he's going to do over nights now, which is why his job is open for takers. But ya, he kept telling me that i just have to sell myself at the interview which is this saturday. i feel like an entrprenuer which i totally spelt wrong,....So ya, with the advice and all the work i've put into kohls, i think i'm totally going to kill this interview and hopefully become a 19 year old telling middle aged people what to do. la

lol i'm not an authorative type at all, i'm so bad at telling people what to do, i dont like to make people do things, but yaa, it'd be amazing if i got this position

i_am_danielle @ 2007-02-20T16:45:00

2007-02-20T21:49:12Z

My doctor said to me today;

"You're a sad girl...You're beautiful..and you're sad."

I saw the brightest light
It was the most wonderful sight
And I spotted the right time
The future is mine

Bye bye car keys
Hello sparkles and flies
I keep them
They're mine

such a good song. by the shout out louds. downloadd itt!

i_am_danielle @ 2007-02-19T12:44:00

2007-02-19T17:49:14Z

Argh I have another doctor appointment tomorrow ><

I had a really weird dream last night. It was myself and a bunch of people I went to highschool with, and we were like divided into teams and it was like good vs evil, because half of us were angels, and the other side were all devilish looking. We were like battling in my living room, and it ended up that I was the only one left alive on the good side, and I ran down the hall into my room and shut the door, and tried to find stuff to pile up against the door, but that' didn't work, and one of them came, and i was trying to not let her get the door open, and i finally give in, and she spares me and lets me live, and everything stops. It's weird, it was a girl I was in Violin with and just recently talked to on facebook like last month.

i_am_danielle @ 2007-02-18T03:24:00

2007-02-18T08:36:24Z

bah

you're not here with me at all. i wish you weren't like this, because it seems like you're really depressed, and that's not how it should be. you should smile. i miss you so much.
you're great and i wish you would let yourself know that. sometimes i feel like i have to do things like i did last wednesday now for true acknowledgement. ajsdghlash but i know you're going through a hard time right now, and i really hope you feel better soon. I just wish you'd talk to me or something..confine in me i suppose.. i'm always here for you, duh.

i heard in work today while someone was giving someone else advice that you have to know your ownself and love yourself before you can do anything else, relationships or anything. I try to do this myself.

but a lot of things bother me.

i went to providence alone tonight, it was a nice drive atleast, minus the suv that almost spun out or tipped over, 5 feet infront of me in the next lane in a boston tunnel, whichever would have happened, if he didnt gain control of his car.. it was nuts!. I thought about driving to other places since I have til Tuesday to do nothing lol.

i'm supposed to see tricia for the first time in almost 2 months now, tomorrow..hmm. i hope so.

i need to get my passport reissued.

i_am_danielle @ 2007-02-13T22:53:00

2007-02-14T03:55:18Z

i have to go to bed in like, 7 minutes at 11, lol, because i'm totally getting up at 4 for a valentine secret mission

then i have work 7-3:30 >< so I can't go back home to sleep, but ohwell.

omggg SNOWW! :D <3333

and I applied for a promotion at work to become a supervisor, lol. the end!

i_am_danielle @ 2007-02-11T23:29:00

2007-02-12T04:31:48Z

Crap, we're on bad ties with Russia at the moment.

akslghksahg I CANNOT wait to go there.

I want to apply for citizenship somewhere in Europe...Move there, exactly!

I miss Laura no matter what i post here.
and Anna Nicole Smith
]:

i_am_danielle @ 2007-02-11T21:50:00

2007-02-12T02:52:31Z

Everyone go see Hannibal Rising.

i_am_danielle @ 2007-02-11T00:51:00

2007-02-11T05:51:53Z

okay, do you know how..

usually when you make eye contact with a stranger, both, or atleast one of you look away nervously as soon as you do?

well,

someone today who I made eye contact with, as my friend Mike and I sat across from her and her friend at the hot dog/baseball food stand at the Rockingham Mall, and she TOTALLY didn't look away, just kept the eye contact, lol, and I wasn't about to look away..Even though I eventually did >< ..So ya, it was a long like 30 seconds of kind of awkardness, but a good kind.

the end!

I just thought it was weird?

i_am_danielle @ 2007-02-08T01:06:00

2007-02-08T06:14:55Z

Went and got my financial aid done at NEiA and visited Dave on his break..I have to get on finishing that ajkghsalkg. Then tonight was good, I waited for Dave to get off the T from classes at Wellington station, it was freeeezzing, even inside akdghas. We decided to go to KFC, caaause that's where we usually eat lol, yeess, sooogood. except for when you eat too fast/much and feel like crap after, but whatevvv. lol 'double mashed?!' ahhh drive thrus.
Went to visit Dylan, but he wasn't home, thenn off to newbury comics, and then we visited Jane at dunkin donutes and got more food, but who would say no to free donutes and coolatas.
DUUUUDEEE, we're totally going to room together "and have parties to the max" hah. oh mann, awessomeee.

arghdkhbjaskl

2007-02-07T08:07:56Z

let's just be.

i_am_danielle @ 2007-02-05T00:05:00

2007-02-05T05:07:57Z

So I'm learning Czech, and really plan to go to Prague one day. Someone should totally come with me and we can go on the Charles Bridge, and to the castles and Art Master Gallery. The Aria hotel is completely music themed, which is AWEsome. You can pretty much stay on the Jazz floor, in the Billie Holiday room. kadhgkahlgkdh sooogoood.
And there's this place called Cafe Imperial where you can buy their stale donutes and legally throw them at anyone you want who's in the cafe.
and it's overall an inexpensive country, ecspecially in oct-march during the off-season for tourism.

that is all.

i want to steal samantha brown's job. akdhklash>

i_am_danielle @ 2007-02-04T21:27:00

2007-02-05T02:30:00Z

Just got home from my aunt and uncles <3
Good times, like always.

hmm Colts are totally pwning in the superbowl right now against the bears.

and i've decided that i really want to do two things
-choreograph a dance to the song "tokyo" by The Books
- save 500$ to take Russian lessons at the Boston Institute of Language for either 4 or 8 weeks.

that is all

and hangout with laura tomorrow<3